Well. I just learned there is some mystery in my family, but also managed to cut myself off from finding out what it is, possibly forever.
I have a bunch of cousins that I spent a lot of time with as a child, but have not been close with as we all married, moved cross-country, had children, etc. We are in contact on Facebook but have only seen each other maybe twice in the last 15 years.
Today one of these cousins posted something lighthearted about distant family and genealogy, and cousins X times removed, and tagged me and another person I did not know, whose name isn't familiar at all, and with whom I have no mutual friends except this cousin. I jokingly replied, asking how many degrees the stranger and I were removed. Joking.
Well, immediately the stranger replied to my comment saying we should figure it out in our DM's, and she sent me a friend request. Okay. I accepted the request and the stranger said she's my cousin's niece. Fine, whatever. I don't really know anything about my cousin's husband's family. There could be dozens of folks on that side I never heard of, they're no relation to me. So I replied back and said, "nice to meet you, I'm a cousin."
Meanwhile, my cousin also DM's me and says there's something she's been meaning to tell me about, but it needs to be a private conversation, so here's her cell number, please call.
Wut.
??
I haven't spoken to her directly in ten years, other than FB comments like "yay for your kid's accomplishment".
I ask her when's a good time to call. Then I think about it.
I live in the same town as this cousin's parents and one sibling, though I rarely see them. My parent is in touch, though. And I am in regular contact with my parent. Our parents and siblings are the only people still living we both know. So why would anything need to be personal or private? Who is she keeping a secret from, and if she had a secret, why on earth would she ever think to tell
me of all people? Like, I could not possibly be more on the outskirts of her life and still be acquainted at all. It's entirely possible that if we were wearing sunglasses or had our hair done differently than our profile pictures, we wouldn't recognize each other if we met in the street.
So I send a follow-up message. She spent enough time around me as a kid to know that I am an awkward blurter. Always was. As a matter of fact, the last time we saw each other I blurted something awkward at her. (Not hurtful, nobody's secret, just kind of a TMI non-sequitur).
I let her know that my awkward blurting thing is only getting worse with age, and that if this thing she wanted to tell me needs to be kept from certain people and not from others, it's probably better if she doesn't tell me at all. Because I can't possibly guarantee that I won't accidentally mention it, or something tangentially related to it, in the wrong person's hearing. Not out of malice, but simply because I cannot keep straight who knows what about whom and who isn't supposed to know this other ... Can't do it. Never could.
So she replies back and says, "Okay then, no need to call."
WUT?
On the one hand, I feel vindicated. Because obviously if she feels that way about it, I did the right thing by warning her.
On the other, I'm bursting with curiosity. There's got to be some familial connection between me and this "niece," that she would be okay with me knowing, but does not want the rest of her family to hear about.
Did she find a half-sibling, and doesn't want to break her parents' hearts by revealing that she knows?
Did one of her known siblings put a baby up for adoption that the rest of the family didn't know about? I don't know how old this "niece" is, but my cousin and her siblings were teenagers in the early 1980's. Packing off pregnant teen girls to have their babies in secret was certainly still done at that point, at least in the area where we grew up. It happened to a friend of mine.
Is the "niece" actually her daughter?
Or is it just something about her husband's family not getting along with each other, that has nothing to do with me anyway, and she's acting all cloak-and-dagger about nothing?
I blurted about my blurting, and now I've blurted myself right out of anything juicy to blurt! Gaaah!